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It's 3:05 am. I should be asleep but I'm not. School will start tomorrow AGAIN! There was something that I wanted to blog about 5 minutes ago that I don't seem to remember now. Hmm should I just close the window? Or should I write whatever mumble jumble that creeps into my head until I remember?

I'll start my pshychiatry rotation in a few hours. First week is back on the medical campus, not the hospital. Which means it'll suck. People here are freaks. From the security low lives to the administrators or whomever they are to the girls.

Remember when I said female medical students are hot and not as ugly as everyone is saying. Well, I take it back. Apparently it was just my year and the year older that are hot. The new girls are scary. It's not that they are just not pretty but - I think- because they went to the main girls campus so some of the scary girls habbits rubbed on them. You know like full make up at 8 am, crazy make up colors that clashes with your tone. It's kinda mostly the make up thing. I can't think of anything else. Bottom line is, I don't like them. Let the hate mail begin.

What is it about our generation that thinks every freaking thought we have is important and should be documented? We blog, facebook, twitter and God knows what else is out there. By the way that question is totally inspired or rephrased from a movie that I recently saw, which I think is The Social Network or Easy A. Can't remember.

Back to the question. Really what is it? You just read the amount of blah that I wrote above. It'll probably do more harm than good. So why did I write it? Cuz I thought of it and I must share it with the world? Cuz maybe there is someone out there who thinks the same and so I won't feel so alone? Cuz it's a very important piece of information that might save your life? Probably not the last one.

And what is it with the location websites like Foursquare and Gowalla? Why would your friends care where you are or what are you doing?

I think businesses somehow benefit from them. Keeping track of whom are their clients or something. I once checked in Uno and they tweeted that they were happy that I'm there and what did I order for lunch? Yes, I admit I used them cuz they help me find places and cuz everyone was doing so. Damn you peer pressure.

But seriously, people -not stalkers- don't need to know where the hell you are. So why use them? To shove your awesome life at your friends' faces?

I'm not asking because I want us to stop. Hell that's what awesome about our generation. We are always out there. I'm asking cuz it's 3:55 am and I have nothing better to do. I probably should not hit the publish button. Öp öp öp öp.

Who Are You?

Was it hard for you filling up that About Me part in Blogger or any bio section in whatever social network site? I know it was for me. At least last year that is. Before I had no problem filling it. Proof? My Facebook bio:

I'm hot then I'm cold I'm yes then I'm no I'm in then I'm out I'm up then I'm down I'm wrong when it's right It's black and it's white I fight, I break up I kiss, I make up Don't call the Doc .. I'm not bipolar .. I'm just a crazy Libra :p

Yes, it is a Katty Perry song with a twist. No creativity on my side. But it did and do describe me perfectly. I know at least one person that when they hear this song they will go "oh SHIT THAT'S COOKIE". I'd like to note that I made it my bio long before the song was popular!

The thing is, a year after, when I came to write my bio in this blog, I couldn't think of anything I just wrote something I made up of how 1+1 doesn't necessarily equals a 2 and life is much more than what we plan and do. It's something I believe in but it doesn't represent or define me in anyway.

Then came Twitter. And all I had to say about myself is that I'm a wired medical student. That is it. I am JUST a medical student.

I spent months thinking about something else that defines me as a human being but I couldn't find anything else. I was very consumed by medical school. I couldn't see who I was. I even lost parts of me. I lost touch with my old non-medical friends. I was the one to ignore and alienate them. I stopped exercising last year. Thank God I haven't gained any weight. But still exercising was much more to me than just keeping fit. I haven't gone horseback riding in more than 2 YEARS now. And it was one of my favourite things. I recently stopped baking too. And it's really frustrating to stop doing the things you love. I am happy to say that this phase is now over. I haven't got back everything that I have lost but I am back to exercising and have taken up yoga.

And so after months of thinking, the bio on this blog was born. I know that I am more than that. But this is what I'm willing to share. I am more than a medical student after all. And I can finally see it.

And as for my new Twitter bio. It was after my new obsession with football so I had to include it: A medical student, TV-holic, bookholic and I have a thing for footballers' butts and RM ♥

This reminds me I must update the blog's bio. Football consumes me now. xD

P.S: This post was inspired by the awesome Fadiosis tweet:

people in twitter r writing in their bios "medical student"!!! is that all that defines u???? :\ :\

If I Were A Boy

I was thinking of how much of a catch I would make if I were a dude. I mean, A) I am a doctor to be and we all know how much women LOVE doctors. B) I would make a handsome guy. I have been told that my twin male is Joe Jonas. He looks just like my older brother, so yeah maybe?But of course I won't be wearing skinny jeans like a little girl.

C) I can cook? OK. Just bake, but you ladies like cookies right?:P D) I am VERY moral. E) Maybe cuz I won't suffer from PMS and the fucking hormones won't mess with my head, I would be more nicer and pleasant to be with? Or will the testosterone just make it worse? F)I'm as emotionally retarded as a man and commitment-phobic which gives you ladies the opportunity to fix me. Yeah women are nuts. They like a lost cause. But of course when they lose, they'll find out how much of a waste of time I was. Poor things LOL.

The reason why I went through this path of thinking, is because I was saying to myself: If my friends were guys, though they really are good people, I would never date them and probably would be running screaming for dear old heart. Still I love them as girls and I really don't care much about the flaws that would make them terrible partners. for instance, one of my friends thinks that telling lies and making bets that you could make someone fall for you, is totally fine and FUN! That "fun" part, scares the fuck out of me.

Another girl, she's nice and all but she really never or will ever really care and she's a blabber mouth, so you know all your business will be known to everyone. We girls want to talk and feel safe, so I'm telling you that is not good boyfriend material. Girls, I say this with absolute love.

But really why are we sometimes attracted to the bad guys? And always ignoring the nice ones in our lives? Just yesterday, one of my friends was telling me about a guy who liked her but he's really ugly. So I told her to shut him down LOL. But she said he was so nice though. So dear old me gave her the ultimate boy advice "You befriend nice guys, not hook up with them". Yeah, I know I am absolutely messed up. That's why I don't date at all. But that dude has a bigger flaw than just being ugly. A deal breaker flaw and I will just leave it at that.

So girls if you were boys would I want to date you? And what kind of boys do you usually fall for?

A Pickle

Do you know that theory or fact or whatever, that when a person pops up in your head out of no where it means he/she is thinking of you? So I was thinking how could you really truly know that he/she started the thinking, not you?
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