Life sux YEAH YEAH !!

Made some yummy chocolate pudding today =] .

My friend is having a party this Wednesday. I dont know if I want to go, bs I do know that I CANT!!

Life sux without a driver here in Saudi T_T.

I wanna live somewhere else, where I can drive myself or walk for God sakes. Y dont we have subways like every other country in the world, y dont we use buses like every other fucking place on the planet :S.

Y cant I live in a place where u get to buy the books right after their published and not wait a whole fucking year. Where clothes r here in season and u have all the brands.

Puff. Bottom line is life sux in Saudi Arabia =[

Anywho, there is a little writing competition a medical forum in university is holding. And I want to give it a shot. But the written piece is supposed to be in Arabic.

I wrote this thing about my beloved city Istanbul (dont even think it or I'll hunt u down & kill ya, I dont love it cuz of the stupid Turkish series. It got a part of my soul if u must know) but its kinda of crazy and dark just like my mood LOL. I wanted my friend to read it before I submit it but umm its CRAZY LOL and I dont want to write something else, no time and I just dont feel like it .

Prison Break

I spent all yesterday and today watching a marathon of PB season 4 on SHOWTIME.

Everything was great, until the end. I fucking hated it. Why does he have to die? WHY DOES MICHAEL HAVE TO DIE?



I'm not the kind of person who likes happy endings. I always think that they are unrealistic, but I really REALLY wanted no make it NEEDED one for PB!!



I'm so annoyed and confused, its fiction right ? so y dont they give us our fucking happy ending ? T_T

BLUE

Hey, its been a long time since I wrote something here. Don’t worry u haven’t missed much :p
Any way I was feeling really shitty the past couple of days. u see my driver went home and I made so many plans for this summer and yeah now I cant do none of them.. life sux for a girl in Saudi without a car T_T. Oh and another fucking thing is I'm not traveling, wooha life is only getting better LOL. And u know what I did to make myself feel better I went n watched "Doubt". Ummm I don’t know it made me feel worse, confused and really fuckin annoyed. U know y? its cuz u don’t really know :S n I hate that, I MUST KNOW :@. So I spent another day in a black, blue mood thanks to my amazing timing to watch that movie" yaay me" .
Today thank god I came back to my senses and decided to watch a more cheerful movie so I watched "Yes Man" ( it was the only movie I have that wasn’t depressing). Any way I REALLY LIKED the movie. I know lots of ppl r saying its lame and Jim Carrey is repeating himself and is becoming boring. But I think NOT :P.
I want to be a yes girl so bad but life is against me and I CANT!! I HATE LIFE !! I have lost the well to live. Please if I was ever in ventilator just unplug me. I'm not saying that cuz I'm now depressed, I've thought about it before lots of times and I made my mind. I'm blabbing nonsense now bs I don’t care u don’t have to read if u don’t want to.
Another thing, yesterday I was checking some other blogs and I found one that I really love. I kept reading and reading. This lady is so open and honest and she speaks her mind, talk about every single intimate detail of her life and I find it so amazing and refreshing cuz I'm so bottled up I cant even do that with my closest friends or family. Mom says I'm gonna get sick cuz of that but who cares boho. I'm blabbering again.
Any way I've decided to do the thing in my mind even though everything is against me right now. cuz I'm a yes girl now *wink wink* LOL. Wish me luck o inshallah I really do it mo bs klam XD.
OOh now I remember another reason for me being blue, its that I removed my braces after 16 months and the result wasn’t like I wanted T_T and my brother made me miss the appointment that I had with my doc before he leaves on vacation to scream at him and maybe if things didn’t go my way murder him so I'm stuck was my teeth for another month errrrrrr. Oh and another thing my teeth was tiny winy thingy out of place before the braces. But I still did it cuz I fucking wanted a perfect teeth n my fucking friend said yes do it, u need it. After the 16 months only a tiny changed which leaves the winy which means it isn't fucking perfect. Oh n guess what when I told that fucking friend she told me quit being a brat your teeth didn’t need braces in the first place :@
FUCK HER , FUCK MY DOC :@

Good bye XOXO << y5ty 3lia so cute :p

Feminine Side

Look how beautiful and colorful this brain is?

You would think some cute m3 nfsha girl did it. But the truth is : its one of our lovely, in touched with their feminine side guys LOOOOOOOOOOOOL.

You Do Count !!

I always wanted to say this to all the people who thinks that they wouldn't matter,
They wouldn’t count,
That there life is just another,
A waste,
A nothing.
Except,
If they are a someone!!
Not just any someone.
But that person that everybody knows,
Dreams to be,
Wish to meet,
Envy his life.
I want to tell all of you:
You don't have to be immortalized in history books,
People don’t have to recognize you in the street,
You don't have to be filthy rich,
And you don’t even have to cure cancer to matter.
You just need to touch one soul,
Love,
Bring happiness and joy to one person.
Erase a tear and give a warm hug to a one in need.
By that you'll matter much to this person more than you can ever matter to the whole world if you are that someone!!
And then my friend you'll feel. Your life isn’t such a waste after all. =]

CoOkie Jar

Attention to all CoOkies out there. It's your queen CoOkie: Me XD

I saw Oprah the other day and she brought Steve Harvey to talk about his new book: Act Like a Lady, Think Like a Man. And from what I saw it seems like some seriously funny shit. I MUST READ IT!!

But then cuz I live in Saudi, I have to wait -I don't know how long- to get the book. T_T

Anywho, at the end of the interview he said that men only need 3 things. Silly me,I forgot the 1st 2. but the 3rd one was: THEY HAVE TO GET THE COOKIE!!

He didn't mean women. he meant sex LOL. And I was like: NOOO please don't ruin me cookie!!

But you know most of the time cookies are women. And I really like our nickname, as you see I'm the Smart CoOkie. =]

If I was a real cookie I would surely be my own recipe of oatmeal chocolate chip cookies yumm. I'm good for you but still with a dark, mysterious side, you can't but loose yourself in it :P

So what about you all the girls out there? What type of a cookie are ya ?

Everything and the Moon

Hello

I'm back with more books =]

I finished the Duke and I.
Its really good and lovely with a handsome hunk and I really liked the girl.
But, I felt it was a lot like The Viscount Who Loved Me. I don’t know it felt like it had the same pattern but with different scenarios and dilemmas. :S

Still I advise you all romance lovers to read it. The Bridgerton's family series are highly addictive. =]

I'm a Julia Quinnholic.
I took this quiz the other day: which JQ heroine are you? :

http://www.quizilla.com/quizzes/4976411/which-julia-quinn-heroine-are-you
And I was Victoria!!

The results fit me quite well. But I don’t know who's this Victoria person?

So I called my Julia Quinn dealer and I screamed: do you have Everything and the Moon?
She was like: yeah I do.
I screamed: I want it tomorrow!!
And she was: OK. I swear I just put in my bag!!
I relaxed a bit and then explained all bout the quiz and that I wanted to know who am I?
She said: aha I see.

Then we blabbed about other stuff.

We hang up.

I was in total shock. Cuz she didn’t ask me where did a take the quiz? And she's the person who has hocked me up in the 1st place :S

A minute later
My mob rang!!

And she was screaming: I WANT TO KNOW WHO AM I TOO ? WHERE DID U TAKE THE QUIZ?
LOL
I gave her the site and everything and off she went.

I don’t remember why I'm telling you about this phone call :S

Anyway, I read the book and I finished in a day. I totally LOVE it.
Its my favorite JQ's book so far. Not because I'm like Victoria. Cuz I don’t think I am. Well just a little.
Mmm now I know that what I felt for Anthony from The Viscount Who Love Me was lust, not love. Cuz I'm totally in LOVE with Robert. <3>Romancing Mister Bridgerton.. yaaay!!

Book Review .. Doc. Smart CoOkie Style!!

Since I didn’t go to college today ( I decided I need a break XD), I'll blab a little or maybe a lot *grinning*, on 3 of the books I read last month. Enjoy!! Or not.

Oh I'm sure you will :P

The Viscount who Loved ME
By
Julia Quinn

Oh I'm in love!! *blushing* with the heroin, the Viscount, lord Bridgerton, Anthony.
He's mm how should I put it? Devastatingly handsome.
Tall, athletic, brown eyes, chestnut thick hair, perfect cheek bones and his lips were classically beautiful :P

However, this book beauty is not all him its so romantic, smart and seriously funny. I mean you WILL laugh your ass out.
But I'm not that fond of the ending, being not a happy endings person. I was longing for someone to die. (I need my drama)

Actually this book is the 2nd of a series of 8 for the 8 children of the Bridgerton family. I am now reading the 1st " The Duke and I". And so far so good. Jill Barnett says that "Julia Quinn is our contemporary Jane Austen." And I can't agree more. Although I don't know who's the hell this Jill? It written on the back cover.

I'm dying to read " Romancing Mister Bridgerton". It's Colin's book. But I can't find it anywhere. =[
So people in Jeddah please if find it tell me where or if you have it lend it to me. I promise I'll take good care of it *angel face*.

P.S: if you ever going to read for this author –which is very much advisable- don't read the back cover. It gives too much info.

NEXT..

Eat
Pray
Love

By
Elizabeth Gilbert

What a brilliant book!!

I loved that fact that she dropped everything and just took off. I wish I can do that, but I can't =[ .

In the eat part she goes to Italy and obviously eat. However if I were her, I'd have done things in this order:
1. Shower myself with art.
2. Eat.
3. Shop till I drop. And I'll become a super model at last yaay . Here's the story of my discovery XD:
Here I am all glammed up, shopping and wondering around in Milan. I walk into Valntino's boutique and I start looking around. I find this amazing red dress. I know I can't afford it but yet I and go and try it on. I walk out of the changing room looking absolutely breath taking and it just happens that my so soon to be best friend, Vlentino is sitting right there. He looks at me and he's out of his mind. He jump up and tell me he needs me for his show tomorrow night. That I'm the perfect girl for it. I'm so flattered but I have to refuse you see I am a doctor not a model (that's what my mom said when I told her I want to be a model LOL). He begs me. And I say no again. He begs some more and offer to give me the dress I'm wearing. Hmm I think a little then say OK. << I know m3 nfsy LOL
4. I eat some more then gag. I have to walk the runway tomorrow :P.
5. I become a super model overnight.

6. You know when in Rome :P

I'm not a big fan of the India part (pray). I just don't believe in the stuff she claims.
The Indonesia (love) part is amazing. The people are so cute. You are just gonna love them.
All to all it’s a really good book with lots of answers. Read it!!

I SAID NEXT..

Love in the Time of Cholera
By
Gabriel Garcia Marquez

Let's just cut the crap and put it to this: the best thing about this book is its cover!!
Yeah you heard me the cover!!
No but but blah blah. I know this author won a Nobel prize. I know everybody thinks it’s the most amazing love story of all times. But its simply not!!

This is how I see it: Florentino Ariza was dumped by his teenage sweetheart. She gets married to a doctor, that you will wish for his death in the 1st 60 pages so the story can finally begin. Mean while, Florentino Ariza becomes a man hore, still obsessing over Fermina Daza (and whats with writing their full names every time they are mentioned :S). The doc die and the two get together when they are 80 and somehow they manage to have very bad sex. How in the world did they have Viagra or something in that time? :S

The end.

What a pathetic loser!!

To be honest the last chapter is fairly good. Cuz you would want to know what happens in the end.
And its not just me who hated the book. Its all the people in my book club. And we are good readers. So its not us, it’s the fucking highly over rated book.

But I'm still willing to read One "Hundred Years of Solitude". I only hope its better. Much, much better!!

Wow that was long :P

Wakefulness

Errr I cant sleep. Last week I was suffering from night insomnia. And its driving me crazy. Cuz I have to attend my stupid lectures and labs in the mornings and then I have to study until after midnight. And I don’t have the energy to do either one of them. Which leave me like an idiot, behind in my studies. Which is something so FRUSTRATING!!

I don’t know what's keeping me up all night ? Is it the loud TV and stereo? Or is it the pounding sounds of my endless thoughts?

Those silly stupid thoughts!!

Yesterday I was up all night thinking: is it 7aram to remove the little hairs that are not included in the main bulk of the eyebrows or is it 7alal ? :S
MAN I COULDN’T STOP WONDERING!!
Tell me what do you think? Maybe it’s the right answer. And FINALLY I can sleep tonight. Or maybe I'll come up with another stupid dilemma to think about ALL NIGHT LONG.

HEEEY I found my theme song !! XD
It so fit my life right now and how I feel about it!! =]

It Only Hurts when I'm Breathing - Shania Twin

Hope life's been good to you

Since you've been gone

I'm doing' fine now--I've finally moved on

It's not so bad--I'm not that sad

I'm not surprised just how well I survived

I'm over the worst, and I feel so alive

I can't complain--I'm free again

And it only hurts when I'm breathing

My heart only breaks when it's beating

My dreams only die when I'm dreaming

So, I hold my breath--to forget

Don't think I'm lying' 'round cryin' at night

There's no need to worry, I'm really all right

I've never looked back--as a matter of fact

It only hurts when I breathe

Mmm, no, I've never looked back--as a matter fact

And it only hurts when I'm breathing

My heart only breaks when it's beating

My dreams only die when I'm dreaming

So, I hold my breath--to forget

Hurts when I'm breathing

Breaks when it's beating

Die when I'm dreaming

It only hurts when I breathe

Shania is so great !! she speaks to me .. yeah only ME :p

P.S:
1. No, I don’t feel sad cuz I'm in love or something. There are other things in life that can leave you missed up :S

2. Really I'm fine =]

3. Oh and in another subject: they didn’t postpone the GIT quiz T_T man I'm so screwed. PRAY FOR ME!!

Now, now

whats your theme song ?